SHADOWS

When darkness and shadows cover me is where a completely state of depression and anxiety comes to me.
When a big and black spot covers me is where I feel just sad and empty…
Everything feels like if someone was attacking me and I feel powerless with no straight at all. I just feel over and numb.
And the worst thing is that when I feel like that, my illusions and desires of everything break down.
Then, I feel in a black hole with no exit and there is where I would like to be in another kind of reality eventhough it doesn’t exist.
It’s hard to say it and accept it but that’s the way things are
But as one human being said once: “ after the storm comes the rainbow”. I’ll try to live with that.
I feel a very huge empty inside of me… something is missing .
The only thing that I keep asking and I’m sure I’ll never know it is this: WHY?
I’m sure that there’s a reason, a rational and logical reason to respond all those things but the problem is that I just cant find that reason and maybe that’s because just time has the answer and soon I’ll know it or it might be possible that I have that answer in front of my eyes and because of my weakness and human condition I cant see it.
Or maybe everyone feels just like me and I just don’t notice that… at last who knows?.—it could be a sign or just a period of strong feelings; afterall while I feel and experience all those things, god is laughing, people are smiling and others are dying or suffering .............................and the world ……..goes on.

NONESENSE

Nobody is the same
Nobody fells the same
Nobody thinks the same
And I feel like a black spot among colours.
I wonder: Why am I a Roman among Vikings?
Maybe there’s a reason
But as time passes I’ll remain hidden inside… looking outside.
And I don’t know what to do.
And I think if life has any reason to be
And I wonder if all things that happen have sense.
And everyone is high
And I wonder… “Who are you?”

BLACK QUEEN

A place far away from hope,
Where dreams are like light in a blackhole.
Among all those things I can imagine all I want but they’re just ideas.
A Black and big shadow of ignorance, violence, ambition, greed and hate is covering everything, like a building falling down.
If you walk beyond the gray and dark meadows you might find a pure, virgin place;
Far away from the opression, injustice and violence where maybe freedom and peace can be found and maybe a place where not even the King could find.
Faith and hope are lost, drawn by the Black wave of the shadows.
This place was pure, and free until the invasion came long time ago… in the horizon even the sun tries to hide from the darkness that has almost covered everything but there will always be a peaceful place and we hope that those places remain hidden …..until god wants.

SOME LONELINESS WORDS

Sometimes I feel lost
I feel a shadow surrounding me that doesn’t let me be what I am.
like an eclipse occurring everyday.
I wonder if I will always remain like that, hidden, and not able of showing myself.
Maybe because I’m frightened.

Many times I ask the moon why all this things happen…
I talk to the moon...but it seems that it cannot hear me.
I feel confused and disappointed… with no hope.

There are many times that I feel lonely;
Like snow in the middle of sand...or like a smile in a funeral.
And in all those moments the only friends I’ve got are the moon and the wind.
For me they are everything but soon I say that I will find the path straight to happiness and I think: “the sky is not blue just because of that”.